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i’m back.

Yo, what’s up guys!? 

It’s been a minute. 

How has life in the q been treating ya? 

It has been a rollercoaster ride for me, that’s for damn sure. And sadly, I’m sure this narrative resonates with many of you reading this. 

But hey — we made it to today! That’s a plus!! 

Anyway, life has been weird for everyone. 

I wouldn’t say I struggle with change, but I do have trouble with time management when structures are absent. 

I fuck around with my time. Not always, I promise!! 

When I’m on my shit and being productive, I’m really on it.

On the flip side, however, when I am sloppy with my schedules and routines, I am a total mess. 

During my time in quarantine, I have been telling myself I will read more. 

The book I am currently reading is by one of my OG Youtube faves, Meghan Rienks.

It’s “somewhat” of a memoir titled You’re Not Special

Of course I needed to read it.

I have been enjoying it. Meghan writes in a very conversational tone, similar to the one I try to emulate in my writing. 

This book is written as a walkthrough of Meghan’s life lessons essentially. 

I think I am enjoying it so much because I want to write a book in a similar style. This one is sparking a million ideas for my piece!

Today I read chapter 19, depression, which inspired me actually to begin writing this!

Mental illness is a stigma. WHY?

In reality, everyone knows someone who suffers from or has a friend/relative suffering from depression, anxiety, or another ‘mental illnesses.’ 

Yet if someone mentions the concept, heads turn. 

In the chapter, Meghan recounts her spiral to the lowest point of her depression, and her inability to mask it any longer. 

At the time, Meghan was a sophomore in college having issues with her ‘bestie’ roommates from the previous year and feeling like an outsider among her Greek life ‘sisters’. A tale I know too well. 

With Youtube being her career, she couldn’t fake a smile in front of the camera anymore. 

What did she do? She told her audience what was up. 

That’s brave. 

What is even more admirable about her choice to be transparent is that she kept along her mental health journey. 

I use the term journey specifically because it is continuous

I used to think that at some time I won’t be sad anymore. 

That was naive. 

However, what I have learned is that it is more important for good days to outweigh bad ones.

Here I am, being authentic, and telling you guys that I too am depressed. 

I’m sure a lot of you reading this are! 

It is okay to talk about it. 

It is okay to own that aspect of yourself. 

It is nothing to be ashamed of. 

It is okay not to be okay!!! 

I needed to write this post to remind myself of that. I’m here telling you guys too!! 

If you’ve read this far, take a minute to understand that whether you see it or not, you are fantastic for being alive right now. 

Times get hard, and seasons get dark. Each moment is a gift. 

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been there, done that

Hey guys!

The world is in a weird place right now to say least.
Who would have thought in 2020 humans would be encouraged to stay indoors while penguins at the aquarium are roaming freely!

Whilst participating in social distancing I have done a lot of thinking…

I need to prioritize myself.
I have to be my own biggest fan.
Practice what I preach!

I’ve decided to use this irregular period of ‘open’ time to further invest in myself.

Give all the thoughts I’ve scribbled on pieces of paper and shoved in notebooks space to expand.

I’m a go-getter. I’m ambitious.
All that good stuff that creates a somebody.

However, with positives come negatives.

I have a very difficult time relaxing. Chilling out — doing nothing.

Previously I felt that time spent resting, reading, watching YouTube videos, or doing “non-productive” tasks was wasteful.
I could be working to make money, brainstorming blog topics, or building other skills!

Not doing things that allow your mind to take a break and rest, ladies and gentlemen, is how you burn yourself out. 🙂

I didn’t quite realize I was guilty of this until I listened to THIS Self-Made CEO episode.

This podcast created by, entrepreneur and life-coach, Adrienne Finch has changed my life.

No joke.

I fell out of routine with listening to it and totally noticed a shift in my mood and productivity.
Not for the better, haha.

Over the past month I have actively been working mindfulness, meditation, and gratitude practices into my daily routine.

Although life around me has been crazy, I’ve felt stable (for the most part) internally.

This may all sound like bullshit. 

I get it — I was skeptical too!

But taking the time to introspectively evaluate yourself; who you are is so beneficial.

You are able to heal yourself.

You do not need anyone or anything to complete you.

You are whole.

Once you’re able to become your best self, you are able to give your best self to others. 

I encourage you all to find one positive aspect of whatever you’re experiencing.

I know we are all experiencing change on a large scale, however, I hope after reading this you’re able to find at least one light in the darkness!

Building a StoryBrand by Donald Miller stresses the importance of signaling change when beginning a journey of growth.

The world is signaling change.
Begin your journey.

I’m a firm believer that everything will be okay in the end. 

We have all gone through challenges and struggles before. 
The first time is always the hardest.
Everything after comes easily.

Talk to y’all soon,
Alex